Memorial Day - at the Farm

We celebrated Memorial Day in Minersville, with Nick's family! Josh LOVES farm animals, tractors, and all things cowboy. So, we took him to Grandpa's farm for his very first visit. He had a blast!!

First thing - Josh saw the tractor and started saying 'please' 'dada' 'trac-tor' - so Nick - got back into his farming groove - and took the little man for a ride - he was so excited!!

Look at me momma - I'm driving - he kept saying bye bye bye goodbye!

My cute boys on their ride!

Hello!

Next, we headed out to one of Grandpa's fields to check out the cows and horses - Josh just stared at the animals! He loved it!

Nick put him up on the fence, at first he didn't like it, and wanted to be held...

But, pretty soon, he crawled up by himself - such a big boy!

Aunt Adrienne and cousin Shakell headed out into the field to round up some horses for Josh to see up close, he was having a hard time waiting for them to come back - but he wouldn't get on the other side of the fence with Nick, to walk through the field. He kept crying every time we'd take him over the fence... so he just waited and waited, and just jabbered non-stop about the birds, cows, horses, grandpa, everything -

Here he is waiting with Grandma for those horses!

Finally, he allowed Nick to take him to the horses -

He loved it!

He gave the horses lots of kisses!

Next we wandered around the farm, here he is running around with Alyssa. Gus and Adrienne's kids take such good care of Josh - and he loves them to pieces! This trip he was very much attached to the girls - Shakell, Aryale, and Alyssa!

Before we could leave the farm - another tractor ride was a must! This time, they rode in a different tractor -

Josh was so excited!

You can't see it in a picture, but Josh was so excited! He was jumping up and down, laughing, screaming, waving - he was loving his tractor ride with his daddy!

We had a blast at the farm!

I love seeing Nick at the farm - you wouldn't know it - but he is a farm boy at heart!

Even though he 'hates' farm work - it is so cute to watch him - and fun to realize how much knows about all that stuff! I don't give him enough credit for how darn smart he is!

I think he had a great time showing Joshy around the farm - and giving his boy a tractor ride or two!

It is so fun to spend time with Nick's family - Josh just loves loves loves Grandpa Marshall - We are so lucky to have such a great family!

Anniversary

6 Years Ago Today

I Married My Best Friend

Love You Nick!

Olive Eater

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Josh has perfected the art of eating olives - via finger tips -

We decided to video tape - and only caught him once.

He loves to 'dance' his food around his plate - and make noises - before he gobbles the food up.

Pretty Darn Cute!

We have an EYE ROLLER!

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Josh is too dang funny -

we have been practicing lots of animals sounds,

and words -and when he wants to cooperate - it is so so so cute!

We decided to get a video the other night of his sounds

- and we got more than we bargained for-

Finally we caught the eye rolling on video!

Watch and Enjoy!

We just love him to death! When he is in his little attitude moments - everything I tell him to do - he rolls his eyes at me! We also just love love love his laugh - you can't hear it really well - because we are laughing so hard - but it is so hearty - and so cute!

Happenings

Yesterday was Paige's little brother Garrett's High School Graduation.

We love Garrett!

Paige stayed up - uber late - and made him a money lei!

He was pretty excited about his big day!
It was great to see Mike and Summer too! (Paige's other brother and wife!)

Yesterday we also attended one of Nick's family member's funeral.

Most of his Great Aunts/Uncles were there - we had to get a picture -

they are a fun bunch!

All of the 1st cousins - so Nick's dad's cousins -

hopped in for a picture too!

Ashley, Nick's little sister, and her twins came - it was their first big outing!

Josh loves those babies!

This is our Favorite Aunt Barbara- she isn't doing well -

We were excited for Josh and the twins to meet her -

Random:

Josh Loves Loves Loves this blanket!

Our friend Stephanie made it for us -

he HAS to sleep with it -

Camrie - our cute neighbor girl - turned 2 the other day

we had her after daycare -
She was excited about wearing a crown -

and so was Josh!

Mother's Day was great -

I didn't have church meetings that morning!

Wahoo!

The boys made me cereal for breakfast - at my request -

I got pretty roses, massage, gift card to great harvest, and a fire escape ladder -

I was super duper excited!

Me and Cute Joshy just before Church!

Innocent Ignorance

I've been waiting years to post this post. Brace yourselves - it's about adoption: the process, the woes/heartache, the joys, and myths.

I decided on the title 'Innocent Ignorance,' for a few reasons -
1- it is cute and catchy- don't ya think?
2- I really think most comments about adoption come from ignorance
3- Maybe I can help educate others, so that comments - which are meant innocently, that hurt us infertile couples, can be better put.

(Disclaimer: I do not by any means proclaim to have had the longest, roughest, and toughest infertility experience, however...it is what is. )

April was infertility awareness month. I struggled with many emotions - many surrounding the myths and comments associated with infertility.
After much thought, I decided - writing would be therapeutic. I stared at blank paper, and a blank computer screen - for many hours - hoping my words would be put how I want them, and not to offend any - but to make aware. . .

I decided to dispel a few 'myths' regarding adoption -

1. Relax - it'll happen:
Let me just say - who knows us? Are we not the king and queen of vacation - and relaxation - if this myth were true - we'd have a bazillion kiddos - 'nuff said there.

2. Keeping Secrets is better for the infertile folks:
I'm young. Nick is young. We are super popular - and we have lots of friends starting and adding to their families. remember - out of innocent ignorance - and concern for feelings - many of our friends choose to 'hide' their joys from us, because of concern for us. I promise you - I get where they are coming from - but - - it makes it worse. Lots worse. I've felt many a times - that then I'm not 'allowed' to participate in their joys - Now honestly - some of those pregnancy moments were big blows - sad days - and hard. But was I ever upset or mad at the couple for their happiness - NO WAY JOSE' - I was thrilled for them, I was upset at myself - and the inability for me to provide that 'biological' family for us.

3. Whos Fault is it?
Fault - essential means to place blame. I read another adoption blog - somewhere - many moons ago - that infertility is not an active choice - it was more of a curse. True that. We didn't do anything to cause the infertility - it just is. Innocently asked - but comes across full of hurt - again pointing blame at a very obvious imperfection, that we can't control. There are easier ways to word this; however, rule of thumb - - at least from my point of view - don't ask. Is it really a need to know for you anyway... If your infertile friends feel like sharing, they will, in their time.

4. This ... Worked for them!
Great! I love success stories - but for every 5 stories you tell me, I can tell you 156984 stories that didn't work. I really don't want to hear about a new treatment, or medication, or this or that. .. even though I recognize it is out of concern for me, that loved ones share these stories.

5. If you adopt, you'll get pregnant...
Seriously - who knew that was how it worked?
This could quite possibly be the most frustrating comment ever. I've heard the stories as well - and yeah yeah yeah for them! It is wonderful - but again - refer to myth #4 - I can tell you more experiences, when this miracle didn't happen. This comment can make adoptive couples feel like their sweet adopted child is 'second best' - that perhaps now that you've gotten 'that out of the way' you can have 'one of your own.' ... Oh - one of your own... that is real real mean too. But if I want to keep any friends - I better not go into that comment. . . but rest assured - I've heard it - more than once.

6. Adoption Cures the Heartache of Infertility:
Um nope. It sure doesn't. Any infertile couple will tell you - that pain of infertility ... it is always there - just like a nagging old friend- it comes and goes - and some days are much worse than others - and some days you don't even think of it - but I promise you - no matter the love and abundance of adopted children - and joy - nothing cures that heartache - and unless you've experienced it - it is a heartache that cannot be empathized with.

I'd like to share an experience to tie up my novel!

All LDS couples wanting to adopt through LDS Family Services - must go through a series of courses - one course involves a very powerful video.

I'd like to share the correlation made in the video with you - this movie is based on LDS doctrine - if you are interested in finding out more - visit this site.

There was a very worthy young boy. Who was approaching his 12th birthday - he was very excited to receive the Priesthood, and begin to participate in the sacrament ordinance. He met with his Bishop. The Bishop was very proud of the young man, and found him very worthy and ready for this new responsibility in the Church. However, for unknown reasons to the young boy, or the Bishop - the Bishop was unable to extend that responsibility to the boy. The boy left heartbroken, and confused, as he'd prepared so well for this exciting day.

The boy continued to be worthy, and choose the right - hoping one day he'd be able to receive the Priesthood. Once again, on his 14th birthday, the day of Priesthood advancement in our Church, the boy met with the Bishop. Again the Bishop was very pleased with the boy - he was ready, very ready for this responsibility. However, again, for unknown reasons, the Bishop was unable to extend the Priesthood to the boy.

The boy, was discouraged, but he kept doing all of the right things, and again, on his 16th birthday, he met with the Bishop - again the Bishop was proud of the boy, but sadly, again, was unable to bestow the Priesthood to him.

The boy was distraught and again, found comfort from our Heavenly Father, as he'd done all he could -and did not understand why he was not allowed to have the responsibility and blessing of the Priesthood.

The young man was nearly 19 years old, preparing fully to serve a mission. He met with the Bishop - to prepare the paperwork for this great responsibility and opportunity. He was prepared. He was knowledgeable. He was responsible. The Bishop could see he was ready. However, again, the Bishop was unable to allow the boy to receive the Priesthood, and go on a mission.

The young man, devastated, as he'd waited his whole life for this opportunity - decided to take the council of the Bishop - and move forward, obeying the commandments.

The young man met and fell in love with a beautiful girl. They had planned to be married. They went to meet with the Bishop - for their interviews to be able to enter the Temple, to be sealed. The couple was prepared, they were clean and ready, they were worthy. However, the Bishop was again, for unknown reasons unable to allow this ready, willing, worthy young man into the Temple.

As I was watching this movie, how could I not be moved with emotion. This was me.

I was ready. Nick was ready. We would be good, no great parents, but for an unknown reason, we were not permitted to participate.

I hope that story helps paint a picture of where infertile couples come from.

Now, I hope this isn't too much of soap box or lecture - that was and is not my intent. I would be lying if it wasn't some sort of a vent - as we've experienced all of the above situations - many times.

There isn't a day that goes by that I am not thankful for Josh - he is the most important thing to Nick and I - he makes us complete - this is purely just for the infertility side of my heart...